[WARNING: THIS POST IS GOING TO BE LENGTHY]
The 23rd of June 2016 will always be memorable to me. You want to know why? Well, it's pretty simple. That was the day I had finally met and interacted with my two idols... with the hottest love team in the Philippine showbiz industry today: Aldub.
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Hello, you. I'm not quite sure if you'll be reading this, since I have no plans of sharing this in my Facebook page, where almost everyone can see it, but if you do... I'm glad you're reading this and for the nth time, I hope that you're okay.
Spending almost every day with you has been a challenge for me. I'm not quite sure if you can see that because I can simply hide everything with my "talkative" nature, but it is. It really is. Knowing how empathetic I am, that small frown in your face or your "subtle" sigh already sends a ton of messages to me that you are not okay. That, once again, you are battling with something personal, something that is, obviously, taking its toll on you. Sometimes, I feel helpless. No matter how long or heartfelt my pieces of advice would be, I know it would never change your situation. I know it will not help you think of much brighter days, of days where you can just smile because everything is in a good place. Honestly, it's a little frustrating, but I choose to understand because you are important to me, and despite the fact that I don't exactly know what you're going through and how it is to be battling a mental disorder such as an anxiety, I am right here, willing to be a shoulder to cry on, an outlet and an support system for you. I know that there are so many things that are going on in your life, most of them are negative to be exact, and I feel so sorry that you, of all people, have to go through so much crap when you have been nothing but a good friend, a good sister and a good daughter. Actually, a good person, over all. I want to assure you that everything's going to be okay, that there is indeed, a rainbow after the rain, but it's a bit difficult for me to do so, knowing that, every single day of your life is a constant battle in convincing yourself that there is still a reason to live, that there is still a reason to stay in this world. Again, I'm sorry that you have to go through all these personal struggles alone. I know that I can only do so much, after all. But I hope that someday, the time will come, when you can sigh look to the skies and say that you are happy, just because you are, without any reason behind it. Only then will you know that you are okay. Truly okay. But until then, I will be right here, always ready to listen to you. Love you always. |
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